Sunday, May 9, 2010

Moments of Brightness


Let's face it, this week has not been that great for me. Between being sick (which I am still fighting off the spin off ramifications of that flu) and not yet having a job and discovering that very few of my clothes actually fit me any more (and yet, due to the job situation, I lack funds to replace said clothes), this simply has not been one of the best weeks ever. However, there have been bright spots. I saw a fantastic play on Sunday night. The Citadel does a Shakespeare play every season and this year it was As You Like It. The best live production of Shakespeare I have ever been to (and I can think of 11 productions that I have been to so this isn't a "it's the best I've been to" but I've actually only been to two). I got my marks back and did waaaaaaaaaaay better than I was expecting to. I had a major photography project that I finally wrapped up get good (dare I say rave?) reviews so far. I'll share that with you some time in the next couple days. I read A Little Princess and watched The Young Victoria. So, even amongst the disgusting week there have still been bright spots.
This picture seemed to capture that sentiment nicely. I love the bright pops of orange flowers against the grey rocky background and in amongst the dry, dead twigs. This was taken in Victoria last summer. Just along the side of a parking lot. I made my family stop while I took pictures. Man, I must be annoying to travel with...

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Sunsets



the piles of red or gold clouds in the west; or the purple ones edged with dazzling brightness; or the little fleecy, floating ones, tinged with rose-color and looking like flights of pink doves scurrying across the blue in a great hurry if there was a wind -- A Little Princess Frances Hodgson Burnett


I have reached the point in my illness where I feel well enough to be tired of just sitting on the couch watching tv all day but not well enough to actually contemplate doing anything (I still have yet to put on makeup and I've been walking around in the same hoodie for the past few days, which, if you know me, you know is a sure fire sign that I am not feeling well). Anyway, after an hour or so of watching Say Yes to the Dress and then a bit of Food Network (although substantially less than the past few days) I was going a bit stir crazy. I decided that rather than sitting on the couch watching tv, I would sit on the couch reading a book. I read all of A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett today. I know it's a children's book, but I loved it. I mean seriously loved it. It has been quite a while since I got that much pure joy out of reading a book. Rapturous delight in fact. Don't get me wrong, I've read some good books lately, but there is a difference between a book I love and a book I LOVE. I am quite positive that that probably didn't clear things up. Anybody know what I'm talking about? Maybe it's just a book-freak thing. Anyway, I was reading and this description of what Sara (the main character) calls "Splendid" sunsets reminded me of a picture I had come across the other day. I thought I would share it and another picture of sunset clouds with you all. The first picture is from Victoria last summer and the second one is from Halifax several years ago. I love sunsets. I'm a sucker for light and color so they are pretty much my ideal moments in time. I hope you enjoy these two as much as I do.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Prelude



Prelude

Margaret Avison

The passive comes to flower, perhaps
a first annunciation for the spirit
launched on its seasons.

The turning-point is morning:
now Budapest, now feathery
fields - where explorers' maps showed nothing -
now a crippled crofter's in his doorway
or the Scandinavians' by the sea.

Under the dry fence
gooseberries dangled on thin stems,
cottony grass buried the fence-posts, the
grainy dirt trickled with ants.
I smell bare knees again and summer's clouds.

Somebody's grandpa came
in shirt-sleeves, solid
and asymmetrical, rooting the word
'trunk', for a child, as right
for man or tree,.
He stood, and gnarled
silently, while he talked over our heads
to some invisible neighbour
we did not bother glancing up to see.

The honeycombing sun
opened and sealed us in
chambers and courts and crooked butteries,
cities of sense.

Tomes sag on the begrimed shelves
locking in light.

Most men would rather take it straight.
Nothing can contrive
accepting. Sparrows in the curbs
and ditch-litter at the
service-station crossroads
alike instruct, distract.

The stone lip of a flower,
the lowest, on the left side,
on the government building,
stares through a different sun.

I lean on the warm stone
and sense its coldness.

The palaces of sense are
patchy after years of hopeless upkeep,
taxes, institutional requisitioning:
a public charge, largely.

A woman with her hair
fixed like a corpse's
is closed like a bank's vault against
even the Sanhedrin of the ranged
windows and towering blocks.

Yet touched to pallor, she
knows day, abruptly,
as I, and the stone flower, abruptly,
suffer the cryptic change.
The turning point of morning, and the
unmerging child,
like the sadness of the summer trees,
assert their changelessness
out of this day-change.

Light, this discovering light, is a beginning
where many stillnesses
yearn, those we had long thought long dead
or our mere selves.

In the moment of held breath
the light takes shape:
now in Osiris, stepping
along the reedy shore of sunset where
stone skiffs manoeuvre through
wild grass and the dark water-gates;
now chipped among the textures of
the chrome, the celanese, the rough-cast plaster,
the stone flower , and my fingers resting on it;
in each at least light finds
one of its forms
and is:

even in the invisible neighbour,
periwigged, black, in hunting pinks,
or rinsing clouts beside the holy river,
who does not bother glancing up to see.


So, here is the story of this post. I had the whole thing typed up and ready to go last night, and then I previewed it and realized that the html was all wonky because the formatting on the poem was far from what it was supposed to be. I was way too tired to figure it out last night so I left it for today. Let me tell you, this is the post that would not format. But I think I finally have it how it is supposed to look. I've been reading Margaret Avison on a prof's recommendation and have to say that I really love her poetry. It's beautiful and full of phrases that are just so luxurious and wonderful. This photo, which is from the Butchart Gardens on Vancouver Island, is the kind of image that the first line "The passive comes to flower" evokes for me. Actually, I could go through this whole poem and come up with images at least for every stanza, if not for every line. Unfortunately, I don't have the exact pictures I want for all of it nor do I have the resources at the moment to get them. Maybe one day in the future I will be able to come back to this poem and put it together in photographs.

P.S. If you haven't watched The Young Victoria yet then you absolutely must. Truly incredible, beautiful film. I shall stop before I gush too much. Just go watch it. And then listen to some Schubert.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Snow Day




Yes, a snow day in May (sorry, I couldn't resist exploiting that particular rhyming opportunity). Apparently this morning was rather blizzard-like what with the continuing insane wind and the snow. I was asleep at that point, or at least trying very hard to sleep, so I only know this from what my mom told me and the fact that the world was completely white when I finally did drag myself out of bed. I had probably the worst sleep I've had in quite a while last night. It was pouring rain and incredibly windy which meant that the sound of pounding rain on my window woke me up about every half hour. And then around the time that stopped, the neighbours decided to run their truck for a very long time (which I understand in winter, but not any other time of the year), and by then my family was getting up and making noise. On the bright side one of my sweet cats came and slept on my bed with me all night. Normally I don't allow the cats into my room at night (due to the fact that they tend to wreak havoc with my possessions) and on the odd occassion that I do let one of them in they usually want out at 3 in the morning and wake me up with their meowing and scratching at the door. But it was like my kitty knew I was sick. She spent the afternoon on the couch with me and then ensconced herself on my bed around 11 and didn't leave until 6 in the morning (which is her breakfast time and she is rather fond of food). And she spent the afternoon today with me on the couch again. Such a good cat. On the bright side, despite my horrid rest, I am feeling better today. I mean, I still feel disgusting and flu-like, but markedly better. And after surviving a brush with H1N1 last November, this flu is like being whacked with a little baby wrecking ball instead of a really massive, taking-down-a-25-story-building kind of wrecking ball.
Needless to say, this whole being ill business meant that I didn't shower or change out my pjs today, much less wander around in the disgusting and entirely unseasonal weather taking pictures. I'm slightly sad about that since the snow is all wet and heavy. Perfect snowman snow. Pictures would have been fun. Anyway, these pictures are actually from Christmas a couple years ago. I went for a walk to the elementary school playground by my house on Christmas Day and the place was deserted. This is actually the school I went to from kindergarten to grade 6, so I've spent a lot of time on this playground. I'm willing to bet it would have looked relatively similar today. Well, minus the deserted part since I guess school is still in session. There is something wonderful about playgrounds. They always make me feel like a little kid. How cool would it be to take engagement photos in a playground? (yes there is a reason I am thinking about engagement photos, no it is not because I am engaged) I think my friends and I might have to visit some playgrounds this summer and take some photos. Sounds like fun.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Stop


I have been whallopped with a flu. Seriously inconvenient timing since I'm in the middle of job hunting. Apparently this is my body's way of forcing me to take a break or something. If the enforced break-taking could occur in a way that does not make me feel utterly disgusting and kind of like I'm dying I would appreciate it, but alas it is not to be.
Picture is from the train yard near my school. I'm going to crawl into bed now. Bleh.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

In Progress


I love this picture. It's from the week I spent in Toronto last year. My friend and I were just walking along and passed this construction site. I stopped to take a picture because the bright pink and orange attracted me and then I noticed the purple doors (including one in the middle of the wall) and the cool looking "MA Imports" stencil thing. Anyway. She thought I was crazy for stopping and taking a random photo. Here is evidence to the contrary. How often do you see a construction site with that many colors? I think it is just great.
Construction seemed appropriate today for a few reasons. First, while driving to the grad ceremony my friend and I got stuck in a traffic jam becaue of construction on the freeway. It was ridiculous. We travelled 500m in 10 minutes. I could have walked faster. Fortunately we had left with plenty of time so we still got there early. Second, it was grad today. I've been to grad every year since I started at King's, but it's usually to perform with the choir. This year I was there because one of my roommates graduated. Plus there were a whole bunch of other people that I knew graduating. It was kind of weird. Just thinking about endings and beginnings and next steps and such. It's kind of frightening to think about leaving the safe bubble of school. I tend to overthink things though, so naturally I didn't end up just thinking about how weird it will be to not have some of these people around next year, or how weird and freaky it is that I will be graduating next year. No, I started thinking about how strange it is that the things that end are often the things you don't want to end while the things that go on endlessly are the things you would rather get rid of. Does that make any sense? In order to spare you all a trip into the strange realms of my mind I shall stop there. It's just interesting to think about beginnings and endings. This is a funny time in life. Everything always seems to be in transition. Everything is always under construction. At least for me it is.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Duckblossom


Tomorrow (well, I guess since it is 12.30am it is today) my dear roommate of three years graduates. I can't believe it has been that long already. In honor of this auspicious occasion, here is a photo of a bright pink gerber daisy. She loves both bright colors and gerbers so it seemed appropriate. I love how the flower is so bright that it almost seems to glow in the picture. In case you are wondering, the title of this post is not completely random. Second semester of our first year, I read The Winter of Our Discontent by John Steinbeck. In the book, one of the pet names the main character has for his wife is "duckblossom". I found this hilarious and shared it with my roomie. She also thought it was ridiculous, and, because we both have a fondness for the absurd, we started calling each other "duckblossom" as a joke. Somehow it stuck and three years later we are still calling each other that. It makes me happy. I'm so glad she is back for the education after degree next year. It would just be too weird to not have her around.