Coffee and Cigarettes

Coffee and Cigarettes

Michelle Featherstone

I gave up coffee and cigarettes

I hate to say it hasn't helped me yet

I thought my problems would just dissipate

And all my pain would be in yesterday

I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain

And watched my bad habits get flushed away

I thought that that would keep my head on straight

And all my pain would be in yesterday

But it's true

I'm still blue

But I finally know what to do

I must quit

I must quit you

I thought that if I didn't go out and play

The sadness would get bored and go away

I thought that if I didn't go astray

That all my pain would be in yesterday

But it's true

I'm still blue

But I finally know what to do

I must quit

I must quit you

I sold my guitar and my piano

I thought that it was these that kept me low

I thought if only I could try and change

That all my pain would be in yesterday

But it's true

I'm still blue

But I finally know what to do

I must quit

I must quit you

I must quit

I must quit you

I just discovered Michelle Featherstone's album Fallen Down last week and I am in love with her melancholy, beautifully written and sung songs. This song in particular is just incredible. I've had a long and exhausting week which has left me in a rather low state of mind. Or rather, it has left me bouncing between the extremes of laughing my head off and bawling my eyes out. (Isn't it odd how both of those phrases involve bodily injury?) Anyway, this song just suited my mood and a conversation I was having with my best friend. Not that I need to quit my best friend. That would just be silly. It's just interesting how desperately I hang on to bad habits or relationships that cause nothing but drama and injury to my heart. I guess it's just that I would rather be dealing with familiar pain than risk unknown difficulties. I tend to be that person though who hangs on to things way longer than I should, way longer than I need to, and way longer than is healthy. I don't mean this to be a huge "my life is a disaster" post, because it certainly isn't. Just saying that there are some things in my life I might be better off without. Quitting is hard though.

I took this picture in Toronto a year and half ago or so. I adore it and have been waiting for the right moment to post it. When this song came on on my itunes tonight this was the exact picture I thought of and I knew that I had my blog post for tonight.